We may talk about our troubles to
those persons who can give us direct help, but even in this case we ought as
much as possible to come to a provisional conclusion before consultation; to be
perfectly clear to ourselves within our own limits. Some people have a foolish
trick of applying for aid before they have done anything whatever to aid
themselves, and in fact try to talk themselves into perspicuity. The only way
in which they can think is by talking, and their speech consequently is not the
expression of opinion already and carefully formed, but the manufacture of it.
We may also tell our troubles to
those who are suffering if we can lessen their own. It may be a very great
relief to them to know that others have passed through trials equal to theirs
and have survived. There are obscure, nervous diseases, hypochondriac fancies,
almost uncontrollable impulses, which terrify by their apparent singularity. If
we could believe that they are common, the worst of the fear would vanish.
But, as a rule, we should be very
careful for our own sake not to speak much about what distresses us. Expression
is apt to carry with it exaggeration, and this exaggerated form becomes
henceforth that under which we represent our miseries to ourselves, so that
they are thereby increased. By reserve, on the other hand, they are diminished,
for we attach less importance to that which it was not worthwhile to mention.
Secrecy, in fact, may be our salvation.
It is injurious to be always
treated as if something were the matter with us. It is health-giving to be
dealt with as if we were healthy, and the man who imagines his wits are failing
becomes stronger and sounder by being entrusted with a difficult problem than
by all the assurances of a doctor.
They are poor creatures who are
always craving for pity. If we are sick, let us prefer conversation upon any
subject rather than upon ourselves. Let it turn on matters that lie outside the
dark chamber, upon the last new discovery, or the last new idea. So shall we
seem still to be linked to the living world. By perpetually asking for sympathy
an end is put to real friendship. The friend is afraid to intrude anything
which has no direct reference to the patient’s condition lest it should be
thought irrelevant. No love even can long endure without complaint, silent it
may be, against an invalid who is entirely self-centered; and what an agony it
is to know that we are tended simply as a duty by those who are nearest to us,
and that they will really be relieved when we have departed! From this torture
we may be saved if we early apprentice ourselves to the art of self-suppression
and sternly apply the gag to eloquence upon our own woes. Nobody who really
cares for us will mind waiting on us even to the long-delayed last hour if we
endure in fortitude.
There is no harm in confronting
our disorders or misfortunes. On the contrary, the attempt is wholesome. Much
of what we dread is really due to indistinctness of outline. If we have the courage
to say to ourselves, what is this thing, then? Let the worst come to the worst,
and what then? we shall frequently find that after all it is not so terrible.
What we have to do is to subdue tremulous, nervous, insane fright. Fright is
often prior to an object; that is to say, the fright comes first and something
is invented or discovered to account for it. There are certain states of body
and mind which are productive of objectless fright, and the most ridiculous
thing in the world is able to provoke it to activity. It is perhaps not too
much to say that any calamity the moment it is apprehended by the reason alone
loses nearly all its power to disturb and unfix us. The conclusions which are
so alarming are not those of the reason, but, to use Spinoza’s words, of the
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